Blogging.... I never really understood why people spent all there time on thoughts and ideas only to post them publicly online for no one to hear. It wasn't till recently out of boredom I decided to put my self in a deep coma like depression and wonder through the lives of high school classmates on facebook. Of course jealousy always an issue and then followed by the never ending thoughts of "what if". During my journey back through a time I saw a post from a blog of someone i never got to know, she had just moved and was posting her new life out there for who ever to read and to respond. I started to read and realized that i had been wrong all along, I was always constantly fighting to get herd only to be talked over and that i needed to take my friends advise and speak my mind and this is my first step in doing so.
The one thing more then anything that I hope to get out of this experience is to learn who I am as a person. i have always been to concerned with my friends and coworkers and how fascinating others lives are that i don't even know who i am and I just want to be me and comfortable with myself. I was constantly settling for what other people wanted out of me and what they wanted to do, and now iv realized that as most people see me as young at 23 I'm counting the years that i have lost and how action must be taken now to gain control over my own life.
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